ayakayasha

this home is my prison this room is my cell its run by a person whos living in hell to remove the bird from its cadge and let it take flight then replace it to age get ready to fight you can not run me you cant hold me down you better not be clownin' aroun' im not taking this shit

why am i always out of reason why do i always rhyme what is it with this season that makes me lose the though of time i am lost in words again i do that alot why do i always save them eventually theyll rot words will always be inside of me and so will you youre in my words too

something lost, just out of reach an idea that you cant teach wheres it gone...? something you cant live without if only you can just reach out strangth is a necessity without, i cant be me i walk these days without a care with nothing but an empty stare i used to stand tall and proud my voice used to be so loud and now an empty husk on the floor who can not go on anymore a search for it i must begin before all are killed by my sins so off i go to where i dont know a journey long and hard

ive been there, mind twisted and contorted ive been lost to the world, locked in my own mind ive created my own world ive lost grip of reality ive been high ive been down and out ive seen the pain ive cried the tears ive spilt my blood ive punched holes in walls ive ripped my hair out ive left scarres ive yelled anf fought ive screamed my lungs off ive put on a smile ive died inside ove raised a hand in offence ive jumped in for defense ive been defiant ive been submissive ive been wise ive solved every problem ive acted a fool ive let it all fall apart ive braved through it all ive run from everything ive been a strong support for you ive b

a far fall from grace im covered in disgrace never was i pure for i harbor a dark frightening creature i laught at tears and i smile at pain i love to hear that i am insane an alluring smile you just cant resist the only difference now is its dark twist ill lock you in your own mind a tourcher device thats simply divine one simply plants the seed and watches it grow though it takes root ever so slow i watch and wait as you slowly believe any and every lie i could possibly conceive your world grows dark and cold and every ounce of trust is sold with little effort i can tear you apart as i burrow deeper into your broken heart im a sinner that p

you say it, i cant hear it you explain it, i cant understand it im just too stupid i cant remeber things i cant understand whats said i try and im wrong i speak and im stupid i dont try, im lazy good for nothing i stay silent and im too dumb every part of me is a disappointment i get involved and i annoy i stay away and im no good no matter what i do, i just cant get it right i just cant win...

hey, the name is Kelsey Fergerson. im crazy, loving, loyal, the best friend you can make. i make my mistakes, i catch myself telling a lie or two. i make people smile, and i make people cry. im human, just like the rest of you. im the kind of person who is the first to hold and console you, and the first stand and take action and fight for whats right. i tell everyone im ok, but hide around the corner and cry by myself. i am strong and independent, but i need the people in my life more than anything. people have called me simple and easy to read, others say i am a complex closed off person. i am a giant messed up ball of some deeply ro

i have lived the pin name ayaka yasha for a handful of years i have lived through and seen many things in my few years. i have seen and felt the pain and hatred of humanity, the stress and insanity of society, adapted the strangth and heart of a fighter and serviver, and that is mainly what fuels my writing. my work speaks of who i am far better then i try to convay outright. i focues on strangth, emotion, contradictions, and humanity in my wrighting. and though i realize this intro is making me sound stoic and emo im really not. (well not anymore lol) and to be honest all but one piece on my page is old by AT LEST a year, the exeption being

i cant ignore my denial you never leave my mind you pick at my brain leaving nothing but you behind your face your laugh your tears your eyes how can i escape? should i escape? i dont know how to live when youve become my life you reassure me you teach me you love me... all i know are words and i have none to offer you i cant speak i cant think im immobile what is it that you see..? how can you know when i dont you or me... i dont know me i know the words that surround me but nothing more so what can it be the secrets that you see. what is it that i hold that you can understand when my mind and my heart refuse to let me in why can you see! i